Even jungle cats get curious, as you can see to the right. She is getting braver about the snow, though its still really funny to watch as she frantically shakes her wet paws when she takes a step. The below photo is of our house. Its quaint and cute and was built in 1905. It has... character, which I love. I'll try and take some pics of the inside whenever I get around to de-cluttering it. Its clean, just cluttered if that makes sense. I love the big cedar tree beside our house, though. It's leaves collect snow and ice very nicely and makes for some interesting viewing out the side kitchen window.
The final picture is of our road. Notice the dirt? Pretty classy!!! Country Living with a capital C.
So.... I was doing some thinking after having too many glasses of red wine on a boring Sunday night. Never the best time to do soul searching, but sometimes the vino brings out certain thoughts I wouldn't normally articulate to myself. I was thinking about my last post in wanting a meaningful job/life. I have been feeling kind of... replaceable lately. By "replaceable" I mean, Drew can find anyone to keep the house clean and semi-organized who brings him lunch and cooks dinner with him nightly. That's a little depressing and I don't mean it to be so. I'm not depressed about it.... just realizing the truth behind that thought. The job fields that are open to me here (waitressing, office temp, etc) can all find anyone to fill those positions. I, as a unique person, do not matter it seems. I feel that if I take a job such as... secretary, office drone, or slave to the man, I will be depriving my life of some deeper meaning. While I throughly enjoy waitressing and barista-ing, I don't want to be a 40 year old waitress. That IS depressing. I don't even want to stay here in KS for much longer.... even thought it is the Sunflower State and there will soon be lots of beautiful little sun beams shooting up from the cold, wet, sandy ground. So.... my quest for the next few weeks/months/years is to figure out what gives my life meaning and DO IT. Trouble is, I'm kinda far away from the majority of things that gave my life meaning before and while I miss those people, places, and things, perhaps I have to find new nouns while never, ever forgetting the old. One will always be silver and the other always gold. Ok, you can stop gagging now.... sappiness has never been my strong suit. I know this.
Perhaps meaning came to me in the form of a seed catalogue today. I ordered a catalogue from these dudes a few weeks ago and I have been anxiously awaiting its presence in my mailbox and today it came! Check, checkedy, check it out: SEED LOVE. Ok, its not called "seed love," but oh my god its like porn for gardeners. Holy crap they have So Many Different Varieties of beautiful, wonderful, seductive, heirloom fruits, veggies, flowers, and herbs. I'll have one of each? Now I get to plan out how many beds I want, how much space I'll need, what will go where and who goes well together, and how to condition the soil ( I accidentally typed "soul" first instead of soil... accident? I think not). I love a good plan and I'm getting giddy just thinking about it! Of course I'll keep you posted on the progress. Hopefully this will be a little more successful than last year's attempt.
I haven't been internetting anywhere else yet. I'm a little nervous to go check out Brook's On Main by myself. I think its more of an eatery than a chill coffee shop and I can really cut back on the caloric consumption at this point. There is also a pretty rockin' junk yard I want to go poke through, but a. I'm not sure its open to the public, b. If "a" is true, I'm scared of breaking the law by myself, and c. I can't figure out how to get inside the thing. Maybe I can convince Drew to come play and explore with me Saturday morning. We can have a yummy brunch at Brook's and then go explore junkyards! What is more fun than that, I ask you? I need a good adventure because for the last couple of weekends, we have been plastered to the couch watching mindless TV shows. I have found some pretty decent shows to watch that are educational and interesting which makes me feel a little better, but I refuse to spend another weekend on the couch. I know its Kansas and there really isn't a whole LOT to do, but It Is What You Make It, ya know? We might go to Lawrence, the home of the University of Kansas where there is an awesome funky bluegrass show on Friday night. I want to go and so does Drew, we just have to make sure we don't spend too much damn money. Ohhhhhhhhh money. Blah. Last Friday, we drove over to our friends Levi and Kim's place to babysit their kids Saundy and Neva.... who are adorable and a little more entertaining than their parents. I'll dedicate another post to dissecting Levi and Kim and their friendship with Drew and me. Peace and Love to you.
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